CHRISTMAS!! (Sorta)

Yay for more unbearable pessimism from me! (If you don't like pessimism, expression of disappointment, hate Christmas haters, or just hate hearing people whine and complain, don't keep reading.  Seriously, stahp.)

So today is the day that we've all been waiting for.  Presents, smiles, and fattening yourself up so you have less motivation to get in shape after New Years.  Honestly, I don't feel really excited about it.  It's here; just another day.  Like any other. This morning I woke up, and I didn't do anything much different. 
Most kids wake up like they just consumed one of those giant big gulps from 7-11. 
AH MAH GARSH ITS CHRISTMASPRESENTSCANDYSUGARCHOCOLATEPRESENTSPRESENTSFOODPRESENTS!!!!

I just woke up, checked what time it was, and tried to go back to sleep.  Like any other lazy weekend day.  Or day off for that matter. 
I obviously am/was not excited for Christmas.  However, I still looked forward to it.  I finally got free time to relax and spend it with my family.  It started out pretty good.  We woke up, and opened presents.  We all appreciated what we each got, and thanked our mother for getting us great gifts that not only we wanted, but needed as well.  After that, we had a great brunch, and...

Started working.  Now, I understand it's a good move.  Start now, get lots done so you can enjoy yourself in the last parts of the break. So I actually got quite a bit done. 
Although, I must say I was rather disappointed with my family's decision of what  to do for the afternoon besides work.  Of all thing to do after a decent amount of work was done... It had to be movie.  I don't think there's anything wrong with watching movies.  Its just that in movies you do not interact with each other.  You sit and watch a screen.  Unless you're talking with who you're watching with, you aren't actually interacting with them. 

I recently decided that I should value my family more.  I really took them for granted.  Someone asked me to think of the most depressing thought for Christmas, and I answered with the terrible Christmas' that kids with newly divorced parents will have.  I then realised how much I actually undervalued my family and decided that I should treasure this year's Christmas moments with them.  But I was disappointed when I didn't get to for very long. 
If I count up how much time my family spent together interacting on Christmas, it comes to about 2 hours.  3 and a half if you include the meals.  I find that just... Sad.  I was looking forward to Christmas to give the people I live with my smile and share joy.  But I didn't get very long to do it.  I'm not trying to be a complaining bratty kid who didn't get what he wanted for Christmas.  I just feel really... Disappointed. 

Minecraft>human interaction

There are guests at my house right now.  Two families, both with younger kids (3-8).  I was fully prepared to engage and play with them.  All my Sunday school and babysitting training was to be put to good use today (for once).  But when they arrived... They sat down on the couch, pulled out iPads and iPhones, and started building their worlds and then blowing it up in Minecraft.  First of all, just blowing things up with TNT in Minecraft gets boring pretty quick, I don't see how they do it for so long. 
More importantly, what happened to interacting with people?  Like the clumsy teenage host that was ready to tolerate children for a day? 
Before they arrived I was texting a friend, and was prepared to tell her that I needed to stop texting for a bit to entertain guests.  But after seeing my unwanted usefulness, I decided not to stop the conversation.  Besides, I like talking with her (same girl that I talked about in my post "FINISH YOUR WORK!").

All the adults were not interested in conversation with me, and when I sat down with them, the conversation turned into small talk.  They were obviously not willing to talk with me, even if I made the effort to be entertaining.  They came to see my parents, the people who invited them. 

So here I am in my room typing this out while the adults chat and the children play... By themselves. And only themselves.   

In my defense, I tried.  I asked two of them, "want to go upstairs to the playroom?  We have lots of toys and games we could play".  My responses were "no thanks" and "wait, I need to finish the TNT tower". 

In my opinion, the kids were prepared for today in two possible ways:
-Give them electronics to keep them quiet.
-Train them to use electronics so they keep quiet on their own. 
Probably both. 

I'm just thinking, what's the point in bringing your kids with you just to have  them look at and tap a screen all day? 
Another thing that just makes me mad...

Sorry if I don't use your name.

So recently my parents have clamped down and pressured me to say their titles when I talk to them.  This is normal; understandable for most parents.  Its basic respect for a child to say the name of the person they are addressing.  However, there are some points where it's not necessarily... Necessary. 

You should address the person:
You see a friend at the mall, but they don't see you.  So you call out to them.  Using their name.  Not just "hey you!".  At least that's what's expected.  Some people insult them to get attention, or some other creative way that I'm not ready to think of right now...

You don't have to address the person:
Teacher: did you finish your homework?
You: yes/no... (Depending what type of student you are)
It was not absolutely necessary to say "Yes, Mrs. Johnson, I finished.  The last episode of Bleach.  Finally." You can just say yes or no.  But my parents think that should an situation such as greetings occur, I must address them. It has become a rule in the house:
"Hi Austin."
"Hi."
"WHATS MY NAME WHY DIDNT YOU SAY IT AM I JUST A PIECE OF MATTER EXISTING HERE AND THATS IT ARRGGFHAHCJRNSPEJEBEE"

...Well that's definitely a hyperbole but you get the point. 

Actually, if I don't use your name in unnecessary name addressing situations, I think its a sign of familiarity.  It means I'm comfortable with you and that I don't need to be so formal and have my guard up.  Guarding what, I'm not entirely sure. Still have to figure that out. 

I address people I'm not so familiar with, but still know their names.  Like... Classmates.  A couple days back before class: "Morning Janelle." If it was any of my friends, I would have simply grogged out a "morning" or "hi", because I'm usually not awake yet.  Sometimes, if I'm really not ready for human daytime function yet, I don't even say anything. 

So to my parents, please don't be offended if I don't say your name when not necessary.  I'm not trying to insult or disrespect you.

Then there's a last group of people who I actually address with their name, when unnecessary.  However, its different than the acquaintances mentioned above.  These people are special, precious.  They mean a lot to me.  I may not use this all the time with them, but when I use it, I'm a little conscious of who I say it to. 

My brain sometimes likes to exclude important people.

So I was chatting with a good friend when she asked a question: "have I ever been in any of your dreams?"
I immediately was going to say no.  Despite being important to me, she has never shown up in any of the dream I can remember.  As I thought about it more, other people I considered important didn't show up in my dreams either.  All the people I thought were crucial to me have never (if not rarely) shown up in my dreams.  I'll be honest, the majority of my friends have shown up in my dreams, because most of them are not confidants.  My subconscious puts them a little lower on the importance scale.  My parents are an exception, maybe its because they are my parents.  However, they have rarely been in my dreams.  So this person I was talking with who went from good friend to super important person to me in a couple months has never shown up I'm my dreams before.  I don't think time gave space for my head to make one (probably could have happened, just exaggerating). 

I also noticed that the closer the friend that's not a confidant, the stranger the dream.  All the dreams with majority of my friends have been really weird.  One time my friend took my clothes somehow while I was talking to a man and his daughter who was my age (quite pretty to be frank, so it was pretty embarrassing when my clothes suddenly disappeared).  Found out my stolen clothes had been put in the public toilet...
On time there was a lethal paintball war between humans and an alien alliance of races called the Covenant... And the most important thing I had to do was deliver cake to a customer's house.  After avoiding dying a couple times, I arrived at the house to find my friends sitting around the living room, and the cake eaten.  Turns out their mouths teleported into the box and ate while I was making the delivery...
Oh dear my head needs fixing. 

Really?

Okay so I came across another anger inducing item on the internet today (who doesn't?).

The question of the day on the website ask.fm today (actually a couple days ago because this draft is old) was "How do you make a woman happy?".  I looked through people's answers, and this is one I found...

buy her starbucks   (okay)
compliment her      (makes sense)
touch her butt         (...what?)

There's more but after I read the third one I was pretty pissed.  If I had a girlfriend (in which I currently don't) I would not intrude her personal space like that, even if she was okay with it.  If she was okay with it, she probably wouldn't be my girlfriend anyways.
What really got me was the last sentence:

do this and i promise you youll get her

First of all, the writer could have learned to edit his writing... Not that I have the right to say so myself.
But seriously, why do people like this type of stuff?  Personally I think people on the internet need to get a filter for their heads.  I don't care if some guys or girls work this way, I still think it's not right.  You can't promise everyone who reads that post that the girl you want will be happy if you follow those guidelines!   Everyone is unique, and has their own preferences.  One person's standards of what makes his ideal girl happy is not going to please all the other girls out there.

ugh it just makes me so mad.

FINISH YOUR WORK!

So there is actually a post in my drafts that I have yet to publish.  However, I am not going to post it.  Why? 
One of my friends (yes, I surprisingly have those) had an essay due.  A WEEK AGO. 
So, since she enjoys reading my posts here, I said that I wouldn't post it (or anything else for that matter) until she was done.  She then proceeded to cry over the internet...

So to my dear friend who has unfinished business... FINISH YOUR WORK!!! :P